Well this week was very interesting. I worked my last week at my job. I am starting a new job and going for a new lifestyle. I am going to work on myself for a while. I need to think about my health right now. I am excited about my new adventure. I will be working for myself basically and it will be a great experience in the bussiness world. I feel so good this morning. I feel blessed to have made a decision I feel Heavenly Father wanted me to.
Keep ya posted on my progress!!!!

So I been trying to exercise with my knee hurting but, it's not going so well. I went to doctors and there is nothing they can do really. So I am doing a home rountine set up by physical therapist. I really don't know if I can handle not losing weight right now. I am trying but, my old habits are sneeking back up on me because I feel so lost. I keep hoping there will be a light at the end of the tunel but, so far all I see is darkness. A week ago today the strip mall I work in caught on fire. Our store suffered damage. Now I can't work til the end of month if I'm lucky. I feel like the whole world is coming down on me. I try to keep postive about it all but, I am so lost I can't stay postive. The stress of finding a career and job that would be better for my knee and going to school for that career is bad. I feel like I am starting over. I really don't know what I should do and am praying alot right now. I will continue to try to lose weight, hopefully I can find a pool that I can swim in for exercise soon. Until then I am going to try workout videos I have at home and the rountine the therapist gave me...

Ok so July was a hard month for me. My knee started acting up that I hurt years ago. Therefore I cut back on exercise til it got better. Unfortunely it's not getting any better and I haven't lost any weight this last month due to this. I am working out through the pain and trying to walk as much as possible. Hopefully I'll start losing again. I decided that I had worked to hard to not keep going. I go to an Ortho Doctor on Monday and am praying for good news. For now I am finding ways to exercise lightly but still burn calories. I'll keep ya'll informed on what happens. Sorry I been MIA lately but, work has been really busy. Work is another story for a different day ha!!!!
Peace and God Bless ya.

FIGURING IT OUT ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Times are tough for me at the moment. I am trying to lose weight and feel like crying. I gained last week for the weigh in. Even though is was only three pounds due to muscle I was building I was angry, hurt, frustrated and disappointed in myself. I worked hard tried to eat as good as possible. I thought for sure I would get under 170. I was wrong. I looked at it as a lesson. I know life doesn't always work out the way we want. So I decided to work harder this week and eat better. I am doing this for me not anyone else. My body is going through a lot of changes but, so is my mind and spirit. I am adjusting to a new lifestyle not just changing to lose weight and go back to the way I was. I am doing this for my sister, my mom, my dad. I am doing this for my health and for the health of the children I want to have someday. I have live my whole life just trying to be perfect little angel to some and knowing I could never be what I or some wanted to others. I have lived with a lot of guilt of things that were out of my control. I have suffered from and internal pain that wouldn't cease. Now for the first time in my life I have control of these demons. I know I can do anything I put my mind to. Now I am figuring out things and myself a day at a time. I'm taking it line up line precept upon precept.

Accomplishments!!!!

Well this week was better. I work out five times this week for 45 mins to 1 hour. I'd say that is really good. I'm so excited to say I have lost another four pounds. Yes that is an accomplishment. I have work really hard. I haven't had chocolate in two weeks and feel great. My mood is improving. My attitude is improving a little at a time. I still have alot of work ahead of me. But, I am going to beat this. I can lose the weight and have put my mind to it. I will succeed. So we will see how this next week goes. :)

Well I haven't been on here lately. I went on my trip and it was great. I have been trying to lose weight for the last month and was doing very bad. The girls at work had the bright idea to have a Biggest Loser at work. We start Saturday May 30th and we weigh each week and at the end of the month whoever wins gets money on a gift card we donate to use in our store. I won the weigh in this last week so far we have one more girl to weigh in today. I find out when I get to work wither I beat out everybody this week. I lost five pounds and felt great. I am trying to do this as a lifestyle change not to win or just diet and lose weight. I think you have to have the right attitude about losing weight in order to be healthy. I just look at it as getting more healthy. So far I am doing good I have been proud of myself this last week. I am trying to keep the good work. We will see how this week goes. I just have to work really hard.

Need Help!

I am going out of town soon. Although I am glad of the much needed mini vacation. I am dreading the food and lack of exercise. I have gotten into the habit of exercising somewhat.. Hoping when I get back I can do better. The food is an issue.. can't seem to fight the addiction to chocolate. I really am going to have to give sugar completely I guess. So I am devising a plan while I am gone. I will try to walk as much as possible.. I will try not to drink soda.. I will try to stay away from sweet snacks that will not be good for me.. Wish me luck! Here goes nothing!