FIGURING IT OUT ONE DAY AT A TIME!

Times are tough for me at the moment. I am trying to lose weight and feel like crying. I gained last week for the weigh in. Even though is was only three pounds due to muscle I was building I was angry, hurt, frustrated and disappointed in myself. I worked hard tried to eat as good as possible. I thought for sure I would get under 170. I was wrong. I looked at it as a lesson. I know life doesn't always work out the way we want. So I decided to work harder this week and eat better. I am doing this for me not anyone else. My body is going through a lot of changes but, so is my mind and spirit. I am adjusting to a new lifestyle not just changing to lose weight and go back to the way I was. I am doing this for my sister, my mom, my dad. I am doing this for my health and for the health of the children I want to have someday. I have live my whole life just trying to be perfect little angel to some and knowing I could never be what I or some wanted to others. I have lived with a lot of guilt of things that were out of my control. I have suffered from and internal pain that wouldn't cease. Now for the first time in my life I have control of these demons. I know I can do anything I put my mind to. Now I am figuring out things and myself a day at a time. I'm taking it line up line precept upon precept.

Accomplishments!!!!

Well this week was better. I work out five times this week for 45 mins to 1 hour. I'd say that is really good. I'm so excited to say I have lost another four pounds. Yes that is an accomplishment. I have work really hard. I haven't had chocolate in two weeks and feel great. My mood is improving. My attitude is improving a little at a time. I still have alot of work ahead of me. But, I am going to beat this. I can lose the weight and have put my mind to it. I will succeed. So we will see how this next week goes. :)

Well I haven't been on here lately. I went on my trip and it was great. I have been trying to lose weight for the last month and was doing very bad. The girls at work had the bright idea to have a Biggest Loser at work. We start Saturday May 30th and we weigh each week and at the end of the month whoever wins gets money on a gift card we donate to use in our store. I won the weigh in this last week so far we have one more girl to weigh in today. I find out when I get to work wither I beat out everybody this week. I lost five pounds and felt great. I am trying to do this as a lifestyle change not to win or just diet and lose weight. I think you have to have the right attitude about losing weight in order to be healthy. I just look at it as getting more healthy. So far I am doing good I have been proud of myself this last week. I am trying to keep the good work. We will see how this week goes. I just have to work really hard.